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Early on in this journey, a dear friend remarked that it must be hard not to have my Mother to share her understanding of my feelings and fear’s about what is going on. Little girls share their hearts with their mothers in a way that not only brings understanding but comfort and love as well. It is true, not having my mother to hold my hand during this process does bring sadness. We shared final goodbyes to Mother on Sunday, with a delightful reception filled with family and friends, who came to share stories, laughter, and love in her honor. She would have loved the day!  I have been blessed with many supportive women who have lifted me up along my journey in life. Not only for now but along the tales of time. I am fortunate to have my big sister, who I know would move mountains to ensure my safety and care. I have been blessed by cherished women who have taught, nurtured, mentored, and loved me along the way. These are the arms and love that surround me now and my heart trusts th...

There is a great deal of this journey that has left me flummoxed. I rise everyday with a goal to be brave and strong, to defeat the day with grace and determination. This is my code to life for everyday. That sounds like I’ve got it in the bag. Lol! Reality strikes again.  I have made two small solo endeavors in recent weeks but my guy has seen to most of my needs. I am blessed and thankful to have George at my side. Even the effort of the grocery store has proven to slow me up so I am grateful that his effort and heart is assuring that all my steps are guarded by his watchful eye. Bonus… arm candy! Lol! When people refer to chemo fog, trust they speak the truth. I had embarked on my first real solo adventure since my first treatment. I am excited to say the least! I began my adventure by assisting my sister with a lunch for the living center mother had spent the past 2.5 years of life. It is a small thank you to those who shared their caring hands and loving hearts. I will be fore...

Even when you know it coming… and then. Trust that I have been made aware of much of what is to come along this cancer journey. Yesterday, I noticed a few extra hairs in the sink. Today, they are clumps. You who know me well, know that my hair has steadily been closer to the scalp over the past few years. As I shared this new development with George this morning, my hero stepped up to the plate to say, “I got this, I’ll cut it for you!” What a gem! This has been hard for him as well. It is not easy to see someone you love and have cared with and about for a lifetime. My husband is a man of very few words. Though, when he does have something to say, it is always rich in thought and reflection. Hearing these words from his mouth in an attempt to ease my moment of anxiety are truly a balm to the heart. He wants to badly to take this all away and ease my pain. This simple gesture of love will last me a lifetime knowing it will be met with love from a heart so filled in the same. Today, we ...