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I can not count the number of days that I have worked to be a person that I knew myself to be, saw myself as, know was seen as being all that I shown myself to be, and still I worked the game and played a by the rules that were at the time, the rules to live by. Then why as time passes before my eyes I trust the purpose and question the motive. What a reflection I see. Today I see the me from eyes wide open, from two perspectives, one is see to be true and one that is true to be seen.... ah...

You know... I've been seeing words of controversy around spending your hard earned dollars on Disney and not... well, here I go... yeah it costs way much... I or we, never had the coin to drop to make it happen... for any of my three... then maybe, while depending on their age, they will remember or not... what appears to me frankly, you're doing it for yourself under the guise of it being for them... a review of the tapes says... this is truth and

Today is a day of all that I thought it could be and exactly what I imagined... nothing more and even partially... with a raised eyebrow and a crooked lip I can see how much and too many of what is to be expected truly is... how and when did we become this people... this animal... are all humans consumed with a hint of evil... a dash of mean spirit... a hint of personal regret that molds us into... what... evil... mean... vindictive... unjust... vile... yet we must own all of these characteristics... all these feelings... all these truths about who... what

Mapping out life to feel different... the words are swimming in my head and tomorrow looks like a movie of all the things one hopes to feel... different... from a cautious optimism of what the world may be... we ask those we trust to judge us by what they see of us... but if that is their truth... how on earth do those who have a first impression... in their eyes... what is it that they see... we only dress one part of ourselves... the way we see ourselves may not be the best version of who we really are...

Responding to... a day that has been visioned in my distant yet... seen as an immediate future... with in a distant one as well... the forecast of things to come... of a tomorrow dreamed... while yet within reach does also at moments seem... I am planning a forward move... one to which i believe will be the beginning of a new day... people be damned... haters be damned... mean girls be damned... doubters be damned... feares... unworthy thoughts... those who dare to belittle... condisend shame... misunderstand... weak and meek... doubtful and uncertain... loving and unloved... mean and spiteful... all you be damned... and yet... winner winner chicken dinner... lo and behold... the winner will never be heard and always seen... and I fear... always underestimated in an estimated world... and yet... do you not realize that you are seen... do you not believe that your words are not heard... actions not acknowledged... and yet... do you ever wonder... are you being seen for more or less of w...

Interesting how the turn of event can completely change ones perspective of life. Living within a world of change... of life taking shape... life taking chances... seeing others come to an ending... while others continue to move in forward progression... of endings... of beginnings... past remembered... tomorrow altered... today... only a breath... and the feeling of complete control of what looks to be... yet grasping for what is known... why are we the way we are... we question... we also imagine... visions of sugar plums... sweet images of quiet desire... what is exciting about the future and where we want to be led is only distanced by how far we choosen to move. Change is sometimes the beginning of an end... but maybe the ending is truly the beginning... yet to dream and see these pictures as reality... here is where we take the risk... of faith... trust... desire... courage... freedom... willingness... imagination... desire... hope... dreams... and all that the eye can see...