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Boys and girls... i am days away from vacation... days away from sun... sand... a language that we'll for no better words than... i don't speak it nor do I understand... i can't figure out the money... the menu... the... you name it... i don't get it... and frankly... to a degree... i am ashamed... you see... i never learned a second language... not required... nor from interest... and this is a shame... this is a by product of where we have come as a society... and yet... on this day... i am again ashamed that... while we as a society... as a county expect those who enter our world be able to be understood... were i to travel much farther away... i should be able to at least understand even the smallest amount of language to say please and/or thank you... and kids... I'm only going to Mexico... were i to be journeying off to Germany... China... am I being unrealistic... my verbs and nouns are nonexistent in the language of many others... yet society says that those who are not... should... and i am one of those who... NOT... but... today i am looking with anticipation on this upcoming adventure away...

You see... this is only my 2nd adventure away like this... my sweet friend Heidi Henrich-Waller... she is my ace in the hole... and i know the blessing behind such an ace... i have traveled alone before... many times infact... but my road has always led me back home... to a place where I was familiar... to momma and daddy... to where my heart has always known love... where failure was still greeted with a kiss... where disappointment is often palpable... where regret is more than a rear view mirror... and yet... it is home... it draws you in... it fills you up... it makes you smile... and is your heart... it is the memory you crave... seek... and know... and in some ways it is from the frankly countless number of those trip traveled... from my own eye view over the steering wheel... i have grown... i have found a strength inside myself that I didn't know I had... indeed I am still learning but... my feet are treading a territory that I am admittedly treading lightly at times... i tread forward... and i like it... and my friend gives me an incredible amount of strength... she holds my hand and cheers me on... let's me be scared... let's me experience life... let's me learn as I go... and fortunately for me... sort of speaks the language... we leave for Mexico is 5 days... yup... let these games begin...

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