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28 days of a new life

 Dear ones,

These past days have been ones of healing that was needed and time that has been blessed.

Today, as my physical healing goes, I feel good. My scars are healing very nicely though I am still experiencing a small pocket of fluid. Fluid is common as I have stated before but as I examine the results daily, I mark time by puffiness. Tonight, after my all but abbreviated bath, I again say… looking good kid!!

Today was a first real day of what I had hoped to be concerted effort toward work. And while I began the day with the best of intentions all became lost with endless calls with hold times, back and forth, still only to gain small results on matters of great importance. While we are forever grateful to the insurance institutions we forward much of our hard earned dollars toward, I still have little faith their interest is my best. I recorded 1:47 as the amount of time on the phone today with BCBS in an attempt to resolve only one matter. ONE! My conversations, all while pleasant in nature and with many words apologetic and measured with sincerity, it only makes me feel moderately convinced a resolution is at hand. I take a medication that I need for a specific need and because of a translation of word, I have been without for a concerted period of time. Time enough to cause even the BCBS agents concern. Patience is again the word of the day. Too bad these same institutions who provide a life giving service didn’t see it as one but instead of the business that it has become. 

Regardless, I persevere!!

Thank you all for your continued love and prayers during this time. I can report George has been a wonderful caregiver and continues his care as I find my strength. We are blessed!!

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