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Let the games begin…

 I have been sick for 2 years. While this may not be the root cause to my other issues it is a cause. The Crohns was caught early and has become manageable and yet we still are working on that. I am down to 124 as of yesterday and now I just eat whatever whenever and as much as I can and just deal with the stomach issues as they come. 


The fibromyalgia is a wrench in my life that I have learned to deal with but it has gotten worse. My pain has increased but I manage it as I have for years. My joints are suffering but not the worst of my issues. 


I initially found a lump on the left side. It felt small but not right. My PA felt it right away and began the process for a mammogram and ultrasound. We had a bit of an insurance gap that held things but kept moving forward slow but sure. Both procedures were scheduled for May 17. From then till now I feel it has increased in size and tenderness. 


During my visit and exam with the surgeon, we covered a great deal of information. It is an invasive ductal carcinoma stage 2. The surgeon referred to it as mid range. He began his course of action conversation with a mastectomy then covered lumpectomy. 


A lumpectomy would include radiation 5 days a week for 30 days with perhaps chemotherapy after depending on results from lymph nodes post surgery. 


A mastectomy would likely not require either or at least minimal depending on results from lymph nodes post surgery. 


George and I had a long discussion prior to this visit with the surgeon. It has been a long time of not feeling well and I am just ready to move forward with life and feel better. While I remain realistic I want to be optimistic too and want to focus on getting better. I am not excited about radiation or chemotherapy. My decision is to have a double mastectomy. It may seem extreme but it is my decision that is about me. This is what I want and the surgeon agreed. 


Surgery is likely July 6. I say likely cause the surgeon is having surgery next week and he knows he is scheduled the week after. He does his work on Wednesday and is assisted by his wife, who he say has a gift for stitch. 


I think at present I have covered everything. Know I will be in touch as things progress. Thank you for your continued prayers, wishes, love, and support. 


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