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Notes from July 14

Today was a good day for us. We celebrated with a little lunch at our favorite place and allowed for a much needed deep breath by both of us. 


While we remain realistically optimistic, our appointment with the breast cancer surgeon was good news! He reviewed all the reports with us and was very pleased.


Pathology revealed the right side negative for any cancer. 

Left side 2.1 tumor removed with negative margins. 3 out of 3 negative lymph nodes.


The incisions look great and there has been little or no drainage. The removal of the right side drain, which is opposite the side of cancer, was great and went relatively flawless. On the left, where the cancer was, I was still draining but went ahead with removal and hurt like a $@?!#€<¥+=!!! It drained heavily but slowed quickly leaving the nurse confident with instructions for days to come. 


I chose to have both breast removed to help eliminate the need for radiation and at present my surgeon is confident that will not be a need based on the reports his eyes have viewed. 


I have a referral to medical oncology for what chemotherapy they will, if any, suggests and refer me to. There may be a recommendation for hormone therapy as well.


Having said all this, we are happy. 

I have been instructed to continue to let my body heal. To LISTEN too and READ all that my body feels and is telling me. I am restricted in movement of arms and applied pressures for about a month as well but instructed to pay attention to what my body says and begin when I feel it is okay and tolerable. I will not be able to drive for about a month yet, mostly just to be aware of the stress involved in my arms and chest, I do notice hand writing to be an issue, as it is pectoral press, so I will be taking the computer slow as well. I hope to be back to work just as soon as possible, as I need to keep productive for our family but know I have to be slow and steady in my pace so as not to delay any positive progress made. 


I have also just had confirmation that all the genetics testing that was done shows all negative results for Alison and her girls to be concerned with so this is good new as well.


This journey has been a long two years an awakening in our lives. Again, we are realistically optimistic that if this has been what the issue has been ailing me then we have some positive answers but only time will tell. We have accepted this as only a step in a long road taken but this road has delivered answers. While answers that may not have been easy to accept, answers nonetheless. 


And life goes on… for me it is as simple as knowing there is a freezer meal for sustenance for my guy, it is knowing that George has provided a way for Jake to go outside with as little strain on me as possible and yet those little eyes that look at me at 400 am an say…. Well… regardless I am grateful to know Jake understands something is up and he is loved, it is house work undone, a bed that is made to not quite my standard but made with hands of love, it is the acceptance of every gift given with hand of love, it is dishes washed and put away in places that are not where they would normally live but housed somewhere, laundry tended, all that which makes a house a home and a woman fuss! 


George is home again tomorrow and he needs a day of peace as well. He has been consumed with my recovery and care and the frustration of having to deal with his motorcycle being stolen and the insurance. Does cause for wonder. That is a whole nothing conversation. Lol!


All in all, we are holding up well. We appreciate all the love, support, and prayers sent our way. Your love and concern mean the world to us. Love and hugs to all!! 

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